My blog title says it all

So we went to the doctors on june 23 and yup my cyst has grown, yup thats just our lucky. I feel like the most unluckiest person in the world. My doctor does not want to do surgery, now we have to do another three months of birth control pills. this cyst is the same one i had removed two years ago. it regrew how does that happen? blah!! I am so fuckin sad!! I will never get pregnant. I will never have my own child. I know adoption is available but I kinda wanted to have my own you know. I am depressed :(

Random Thoughts

I was watching a movie call He's just not that into you. I don't understand how people especially females can sleep with a married man. like he is married who does that? I just don't get it. why would you want to? it's so skanky!!. So, moving on I had training this past weekend it was fun. hanged out with people who were all younger then me. I was like the third oldest there lol. I need a new job.

Changes

My hubby and I started a new diet today. it is called the insulin restiant diet. I am loving it because I can eat a little more carbs lol. I also stopped my birthcontrol pills yay!! they were making me sick and I called my doc to tell her they were making me sick. so I am excited about that woo hoo!!! nothing new going on with the fertility deal. I wish there was though lol.