11 weeks wow!

so this week i am 11 weeks. I find it almost like a dream like wow is this really happening to me? i feel so blessed right now. thank you Jesus for everything. it was really weird because we weren't trying we gave up. i wasn't even on my metformin. but i am 11 weeks i go for a ultrasound next Monday to see if the baby has down syndrome i wouldn't even care if it did. I am going to love my baby no matter what!!!

OH MY LUCKY STARS!!!

WE ARE FINALLY PREGNANT!! AND IT HAPPENED NATURALLY! WOW! I AM 10WEEKS AND 1 DAY TODAY! YAY!!!!

an update

We(mostly hubby) have decided to stop trying for now. I am going to make a blog about my life. since I have nothing to blog on here about. :(

My blog title says it all

So we went to the doctors on june 23 and yup my cyst has grown, yup thats just our lucky. I feel like the most unluckiest person in the world. My doctor does not want to do surgery, now we have to do another three months of birth control pills. this cyst is the same one i had removed two years ago. it regrew how does that happen? blah!! I am so fuckin sad!! I will never get pregnant. I will never have my own child. I know adoption is available but I kinda wanted to have my own you know. I am depressed :(

Random Thoughts

I was watching a movie call He's just not that into you. I don't understand how people especially females can sleep with a married man. like he is married who does that? I just don't get it. why would you want to? it's so skanky!!. So, moving on I had training this past weekend it was fun. hanged out with people who were all younger then me. I was like the third oldest there lol. I need a new job.

Changes

My hubby and I started a new diet today. it is called the insulin restiant diet. I am loving it because I can eat a little more carbs lol. I also stopped my birthcontrol pills yay!! they were making me sick and I called my doc to tell her they were making me sick. so I am excited about that woo hoo!!! nothing new going on with the fertility deal. I wish there was though lol.

Grumpy Lady's Rant!! NO CARBS!

I am very grumpy because I am hungry for carbs!!!! lol being on metformin I cant eat many carbs like bread!!! I just want toast with tea and I cant eat it. I am a sad sad lady. I need to go grocery shopping today for low carb friendly food. is there such a thing as low carb bread? I am soo carving bread sorry for the rant.